Being off work gives you time to think—sometimes too much time. I’ve found myself stuck in my thoughts, turning them over and over, trying to make sense of everything swirling in my head. Writing always helps, so here I am, spilling my heart in hopes of finding some clarity.
I’ve been thinking a lot about soulmates. Not necessarily the romantic kind, but the people whose connection to us transcends explanation. I truly believe in soulmates, and for me, my best friend was that person.
Losing him has left a void in my heart that feels impossible to fill. He wasn’t just a friend; he was the person who knew me better than I knew myself, the one who made me feel complete. Our souls were meant to be together—of that, I have no doubt. That’s why the pain he caused cuts so deeply. It’s not just the loss of his presence; it’s the loss of part of my soul.
Time is supposed to heal, right? But some days, it feels like one step forward and ten steps back. I’ll have moments where I think I’m okay, only to be blindsided by a bad day that knocks me back to square one. Healing isn’t linear, and right now, it feels like my journey is stuck on repeat.
As 2025 approaches, I’m holding onto hope that things will begin to shift. Maybe the pain will feel a little less sharp, and the days won’t feel so heavy. But for now, I’m giving myself permission to feel. To grieve. To miss him.
If you’re going through something similar, know this: It’s okay not to be okay. It’s okay to sit with your sadness, your anger, or your confusion. Your feelings are valid, and no one has the right to tell you otherwise.
Thank you for letting me share this. Writing it out doesn’t fix the pain, but it eases the weight, even if just a little. If you’re hurting too, I hope you find your own way to release it. And remember, you’re not alone.
The Adventures of Julie and Bella 2025 
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